Monday, February 29, 2016


I’m gonna call my combining of Red & Cyan project Cyndrea and tag it as such
because it is basically the name of mixing the letters in the words red + cyan, in my weird way of making an anagram of it.

I was like, what AomiArmster letters can I pull from Red + Cyan and it was just R,E,A  so it was just Rea, kinda bland, the left over letters was D,C,Y,N. I rearranged and saw a name I liked!

CYNDREA, its like Cindy and Rea or whatever
Cyndrea is name-name too.

#FF0000 & #00FFFF shenanigans await.

There will be mostly colour schemes,palettes,and whatever mayhem that exists between Red and Cyan.

I changed the name of this blog to Cyndrea6 (the 6 for the 6 F's and 6 0's that make up the red and cyan hexes)

Monday, October 07, 2013

note to self


Must be Followed exactly. NO SNACKING WHATSOEVER BETWEEN breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
—First Day—

Breakfast: black coffee or tea, 1/2 grapefruit, 1 slice of toast, 2 tablespoons of peanut butter.

Lunch: 1/2 cup of tuna, 1 slice of toast, coffee or tea

Dinner: 2 slices of any type of meat ( 3 oz), 1 cup of string beans, 1 cup of beets, 1 small apple, 1 cup of vanilla ice cream.
—Second Day—

Breakfast: 1 egg, 1/2 banana, 1 slice toast, black coffee or tea.

Lunch: 1 cup cottage cheese, 5 saltine crackers

Dinner: 2 hot dogs, 1 cup of broccoli, 1/2 cup carrots, 1/2 banana, 1/2 cup of vanilla ice cream
—Third Day—

Breakfast: 5 saltine crackers, 1 slice cheddar cheese, 1 small apple, black coffee or tea

Lunch: 1 hard boiled egg, 1 slice toast

Dinner: 1 cup tuna, 1 cup beets, 1 cup cauliflower, 1/2 cantaloupe, or 1 cup frozen mixed fruit, 1/2 vanilla ice cream
no substitution of food, salt and pepper only, no other seasonings, no restrictions other than common sense when no quantity is given. USE THIS DIET FOR THREE DAYS ONLY then return to 4 days of normal diet.

Monday, November 09, 2009

Shopping List for Demons

For Low Fat Dairy
- Greek Yogurt 0% fat, plain
- Nonfat or Low fat milk: Organic Valley (lactose free available); Horizon.
-Low fat Cottage Cheese
- Light Yogurt
-Laughing Cow "LIGHT" cheese wedges.

Snacks/Other foods/fats
-Protein Shakes ( 150 calories, 20-25gm protein, less than 5gm sugar, 3-6 fat)
-Hummus Dip
-Low fat spicy black bean dip (TJ's)
-Tatziki Dip
- fat free microwave popcorn
-Kozy Shack sugar free pudding, Jello brand sugar free pudding
-all natural peanut or almond butter, sugar free jelly
-low cal condiments: salad dressings,vinegar,mustard,spices,herbs,garlic,tomato sauce,salsa.
-fats: olive oil,walnut oil, smart balance/earth balance, benecol,avocados.

-greens: spinach
-tomato,cucumber,bell pepper,radish,onion,zucchini,cauliflower (mini sizes TJ's)
-baby carrots, frozen broccoli,brussels sprouts,asparagus (tips only); organic if posssible.
- baby food vegetables
-vegetable soups: butternut squash, tomato,carrot,potato,mushroom. look for organic lower sodium content. 200-300 sodium per 1 cup: not creamed based.
-vegetable: juice: compare calories... lowest calorie & without fruit juice.

- frozen berries, other frozen fruit
- fresh fruit: bananas,apples,plums,peaches,mango: organic if possible
apple sauce: baby food cooked fruit: peaches,prunes,plums,bananas.

Carbohydrates/starches: (whole grain: at least 3gm of fiber or more per serving)
- instant oatmeal(high fiber low sugar) Trader Joe's "oatmeal complete or Quaker Oats 100% oats
-cream of wheat or grits
-AkMak Crackers look for 3gm of fiber or more per serving
-lentils, beans,butternutsquash,yams,sweet potatos

Other Proteins
- low sodium sliced turkey breast
-boneless skinless chicken breast
- fresh/frozen fish fillets not breaded
-lean pork tender loin
-lean ground turkey, chicken or beef
-Morningstar Farms : meatless links, patties and burgers
- extra firm tofu
- eggs or egg whites; or egg salad ( low fat: 3-6gm fat per serving)
-trader joe's frozen shrimp/scallops
-canned tuna in water (light, not white)
- sardines in water
-turkey meatballs/meatless meatballs frozen
-fat free refried beans,black beans,kidney,garbanzo,low fat vegetarian chili

Friday, September 28, 2007

It started with a nightmare.

I went to bed like normal and before I knew it, I was in the beginning of a nightmare. A bad one, so bad the instant I woke up I wrote this.

It took place in the Burbank Mall in california.. but.. when I was in it, it was not like its usual self, all bright and preppy, it was just dark and empty and when i looked outside from the windows it was normal, people walking bright happy day. I couldn't get out and no one could hear me. It is kinda scary how in reality the windows would just shatter if what i did really happened, i threw chairs, tables, i even threw a sign at the windows, nothing had worked. I was still trapped inside.

i heard a flutter of wings behind me and i saw my cockatoo but something was wrong about her, her feathers were all rotten, she smelled really, reallly bad and she was trying to fly away from me but she kept falling and falling but when i tried to get to her, my feet would get stuck to the tiles on the floor and i'd get red vision and my head hurt, my ears rang. She finally flew a bit but it looked like she had hit a solid invisible wall and she fell down the escalator shaft. the ground let go of me and i ran after her. the moment i got two steps down the escalator, the entire place went dark, i couldn't see down the shaft anymore and my bird was screaming and i couldn't go up or down because the darkness was devouring everything around me.

I tried to wake myself up, i knew i was dreaming but for some reason i couldn't wake up. after the darkness overwhelmed me i found myself in las vegas (wtf) but it was dark and empty, cars were in the streets but they weren't moving and no one was around but only one area was bright, i think it was luxor, so i ran towards that huge black pyramid, i knew i got tricked because once i was in the lobby everything went dark inside and the outside went back to normal again, cars came and went, people were walking around, etc.

I turned around to see if i could use anything (again ) but nothing was there just a small arrea that was lit up by the outside,again, I was trapped inside. i went towards the edge of the light and my brother somehow appeared behind me, he said my name, i turned around, i couldn't see his face or any features of him because the light was behind him, he was kinda glowing because of that. I went to run at him but something grabbed my legs and i fell over, i felt my chin hit the ground and my teeth clacked, and i was dragged back into the darkness, i couldn't even scream because some of my teeth broke and flew back into my throat (WTF?!) i was choking somehow. the darkness behind me was screaming,snapping, moaning, groaning, scratching, clacking, slashing, i even heard a cat. it was a mixture of sounds that was so scary i can't fully explain it.

My brother seemed to drift farther and farther away from me each time i blinked as I was being dragged back, i finally managed a bloody gurgley scream and he kinda warped right in front of me, grabbed me by the sides of my head. I couldn't pull away. He was so close and I still couldn't see his face, he was mumbling something, something like "Its so pretty down here. Where are you Teni?! Where are you?!" He became frantic but it sounded like his voice was getting cut off by static.

I felt something in my back crackle and instantly my legs went numb. A grey haze covered my vision and i felt nausious, oh god my back broke. My brother held me up by the head and started squeezing my eyes in with his thumbs, i felt my left eye pop out but i can't describe that feeling.. its like a pressure on your eye, a sharp pain, then nothing. When my eye came out, he stopped pushing his thumbs into my eyes, I saw his face clearly but it kept warping, his eyes were black, like he gouged them out, I cried at this, his eyes are normally pretty blue-green and crystalish, I was missing an eye and I was more worried about his. His long black hair kinda moved to the side, I realized he cut his ears off, I screamed at this too, he held my head still, almost tenderly.

I screamed and I screamed and his head would kinda bob sadistically left to right, down then up, he'd smile and frown, some how scream. He kinda bent down a bit, I could see the light behind him as before and with my good eye, I saw someone familiar, but it made my heart sink. It was me, the me.. that I used to see as a male in my nightmares, the one that would hunt me down and kill me.

'He' approached my brother from behind and with one fluid motion, gracefully wrapped 'his' arms around my brother, reached up, stuck 'his' fingers into his mouth with one hand, the other covered my brother's eyes and nose and 'he' jerked 'his' other hand, and with a sick POP my brother's jaw broke off with one clean tug. My brother still held my head in his hands, I couldn't move. The male version of me lifted 'his' hands up as if 'he' was praising a god, and i noticed the blood and darkness on the floor was starting to crawl towards 'him'. 'He' laughed once, dropped my brother's jaw, brought 'his' hands down, pulled a pack of cigarrettes out of 'his' pocket, lit one and walked away, towards the light of the doors and as 'he' did, the darkness overwhelmed me again.

I was thankful i woke up after that because, really, my heart was about to explode out of my eyes from the stress i was feeling. strangely enough, this morning, my brother, had come home and what really, realllly freaking bothered me was when I saw him, there was a huge gash over his left eye. He said he got the gash from an open kitchen cabnet he failed to notice. i really really don't know what to think about it (the nightmare), and i did feel rather sickly about it and i haven't told him about it yet and I can't seem to look him in the eyes. I can't even look at myself in the mirror. The mind is a scary, scary, wonderful thing.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Spinebabies and Aomipu

Hello loves! (yes, i know this is getting super annoying, i'm sorry!! ) Below are two links, the first one is for the Aomipu template and the second one is the Spinebaby template.
You can modify & color these two to your liking(anyway you want), its kind of a club/group/badge thing. These templates are in .gif format so you need to use an art program, something like photoshop,etc--so yeah edit them to your liking!
(you can make your own too but keep the sizes
12x12, 15x15,50x50,80x80,100x100 )

Little background info:
The Aomipu's are like a species of avatar they're just like small puff ball versions of something else.
Spinebabies are the creation of a number of people. It started when Xaphiroth had to go in for a spinal tap and then ManadaTehPanda freaked out and screamed something about a result of such a test 'tissues in the spine' or something, then it became a joke of Spinal Fetus, Spine Fetus, Spine Baby, something of the sort. That was back in Feburary!
It was just a few days ago that I joked around with a person ( Ve) and impregnated him with Spinal Fetuses
so he got the idea to draw such a thing, and then another person InsomniaticDreamer made a SpineBaby emoticon,stamp & an avatar.

How to get a spine baby, its easy, your spinal fluid is flushed out and fetuses are implanted in the fluid then it is put back into the spine :B

lol SpineBaby Society
Spine Babies Links/pictures:
If you are going to use the templates
please have them LINK back here to this journal!
and drop a link to where you are using one of the Aomipus or the Spine Baby!
yes coz this is a community thing!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

I am a loser

I've done something stupid and unforgivable
I've hurt someone badly
and I'm feeling guilty-sorrow.
I don't know if it was out of lonliness or the
flaw in me where I can't say no.

A mistake I am learning from
one mental scar that will never fade even with time
of all the things I hate in people, I hate in myself.
I should've listened to the first warnings, feelings
what I was warned not to do.
I learn, I'm learning.

I guess this is the price I will pay.
I don't know if it is grief, or rage
I can't say I am suffering, its more about
how sorry I am and I will never be able to prove it, show it, feel it.

I wish I was evil, so I wouldn't care or it wouldn't bother me.

I say no in my head, I say no
I never act on... NO.
Just to make others happy...

so yeah, emo Teni. stupid Teni

How dare Teni complain.

well if the septic tank hit a fucking turbine

I won't ask why anymore.

I've also smashed that small violin long ago.
I have not complained once when people told me their woes, because I know if it came to me, I want people to lend an ear once a while.

Everyone makes mistakes.
I'm trying to believe this.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

i dont believe it

so i was asked again to draw something- ya know a request?well i'm flooded with things like that- and i have art trades i have to owe-- yupso jokingly i saidif i get paid $5 for requests--- then HECK YEAH D:I was told-- yeah they'd pay. so i'm like .... crazy enough for commissions? ok D: my prices are low- and its a half and half thing- i'll have more details laterthis is not a sure set thing yet.. just an idea and idea X_x nothing is set up yet but these be my standards D:but i cant do commisions until i finish my art trades --- ----------------------------------------if you want- you can always chose the pose of a character/smy art style is a mix of anime & western-ish ness[]1 full body character drawn with a backshot background of said character's torso is $5example of a backshot background -->[]1 full body character bust is $2 (with choice of color background)[] full body character (one character) sheets are $10 with 4 poses ( you know, front back 3/4th's and side view )[]full body character (one character) sheets with accessories & 4 poses $ facial expressions are $25[]2 character busts is $5 (like the torso shot of a momma holding her baby) [] 1 full body character with choice of background is $7* I can also draw hentai & yaoi & yuri ( straight porn, gay porn, lesbian or random nudes)[]all porn things are $8 ONLY 2 CHARACTERS no backgrounds (choose the posing/ act & whatever is going on )[]random nudes 1 fully body character (you know the artistic kind of nude) will be $5 -----------------------------------------------------------GIVE FULL DETAILS- (for each character)
Name of Character:
Name of owner of Character:
body shape:
pose of character:
facial expression:
skin color:
eye color:
hair color:
hair style:
markings on skin?:
clothing(full details here):
(if it applies) Background?:
any pets?:
this is just an idea... i'm going for-- i dont know about it-- it depends on who wants ithalf and half.. all the of the above will have full shading & stuff. @_@just an idea....